It’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to
No One on September 19, 2007 in In Her Own Mad Mind No Comments »Yeah that’s right, it’s my birthday again. And once again I really don’t care. As I’ve said before, this day is nothing to celebrate.
Archive for September, 2007
I had an email from yet another old friend yesterday. Homesickness upon homesickness here in the land of sunshine and shit. I just keep telling myself that someday I get to go back home, that someday my life will once again be about me. That someday I’ll get my life back, that I’ll get to make the decisions and set the rules. I’ll live for me again.
And sometimes I even believe it. 
I heard from an old friend today (yeah I to am amazed that I still have friends!). It’s made me more homesick than ever before. I think that’s a BIG part of my current state of mind…I hate the town (and state) I’m living in to such an extent that I can’t even put it into words anymore. I know people must be thinking that if it’s that bad here why don’t I just leave. Because right now I can’t, plain and simple. But know this, when the time comes I will be gone. Without a second thought or a backward glance. I just wish I had a clue as to when that might be.
