As I posted earlier, when I upgraded my Wordpress to 2.5 the photo gallery plugin I was using wasn’t compatible. The plugin author finally upgraded it and with the help of some folks on his site I’ve finally got it working! I am very excited as this was the only plugin that fulfilled all my requirements.

So I am slowly getting the Twisted Visions Gallery back up to it’s former glory. Bear with me as I try to fit this in among the other stuff that’s taking up my time.

So yeah, I had another breakdown at work yesterday and this one was a little bit more public. My paranoia level is through the roof, especially at work since I’ve been called in twice (actually 3 times – the first was a private “heads up” talk with my former supervisor) about people complaining about me.

The short version is that I was in my car before work freaking out and trying to blow off some steam before going in for the day. Someone pulled up behind me, leaving their lights on and shining into my mirror and my face. As I was already screaming about my latest drama I (after several minutes of being blinded) turned around and looked. Almost immediately the lights went off but the person stayed in their car for a while. When they finally got out I noticed it was a lead from my department. When she walked through the gate I noticed she specifically looked down the lot towards my car. Right away the panic set in that she heard me and will now go report me and I’ll get hauled in to HR again, possibly getting written up again this time. I went upstairs to start my work but couldn’t stop the tears and the panic. I asked my supervisor to make an appointment for me with the same HR lady I talked to last time.

So I went at the appointed time and explained the situation to her. I told her quite a bit of how things are lately, such as how I no longer will even look at or speak to anyone for fear of inadvertently offending them. I am constantly in fear of something happening. She seemed distressed at this FOR me, not at me and I take this as a good sign. After our talk she took me to a private room so I could calm myself down and told me to take as much time as I needed and to take a break if I needed and not worry about my idle time or production as she would talk to my supervisor and smooth things over. So an hour and 15 minutes and 2 cigarettes later I went back to work, still on the verge of tears but feeling a little better inside knowing that my head wasn’t on the chopping block. I still need to watch myself though and it scares me that my control has slipped yet again.

I guess that wasn’t such a short version. Oh well, sorry. As it’s Friday, I’m off for another day. Hopefully the thoughts of a 3 day weekend will help to keep me calm.

I’m not going into details just yet, and most people probably won’t even really notice any difference but I will be doing work on the site. It probably won’t really happen until after I’m back from my trip but I’m hoping to ramp things up here a bit. I’m not even sure how to exactly go about what I want to do but I’ll figure it out eventually. Add some things, move things around and so forth. Again I don’t want to give too much away, mainly because if it doesn’t work out I won’t look so stupid.

So if the site is down now and again you’ll all know why.