Muted Lunacy

I think the unofficial name of this category is “The Pit”. It’s where I keep all the bad in my life. This was the first and main section of the site.

As I was going through my “before bed” routine last night I realized that I’m living in a state of fear brought about in a big way by our current society. My “before bed” routine consists of making sure all the windows and doors (including the heavy duty security door) are locked up tight. [...]

Especially when it’s done by family. Okay so the “whine du jour” happened yesterday, bear with me as I’m sure most will think it’s petty but to me it’s just another thing on top of all the others. Another hint that my sister does not get it.
So after I got out of work [...]

I used to think I knew, but now I’m not so sure. To me a home should be a safe place…it’s where you go to regroup from the pressures and stresses of life…where you can relax and be yourself. I no longer have a home. Yes, I have a house that I [...]

I’m back from the trip to my hometown back east. I can’t express how good it was to be back there. How calm I was (in anything that DIDN’T have to do with Mom or the shithole I live in now), and how much nicer an atmosphere there is there. By that [...]

As I mentioned last month, I’m taking a trip back east. Well today is the day! In a few hours I’ll be on a plane dodging thunderstorms all across the country. A check of the weather back there tells me that I’m going from 100+ temps and low humidity to high 90’s, [...]

So yeah, I had another breakdown at work yesterday and this one was a little bit more public. My paranoia level is through the roof, especially at work since I’ve been called in twice (actually 3 times - the first was a private “heads up” talk with my former supervisor) about people complaining about [...]

Just for a week but that’s better than nothing. It’ll be so good to get back east where I belong. Where there’s green grass and REAL trees. Honest to goodness mountains instead of hills with delusions of granduer. Properly prepared Chinese food and authenic New Yawk style pizza! And rude [...]

You know…those people who are supposed to be there for you, to help you when you need it most. Well when you all decide to bash me for my attitude, I say this to you:
I’ve got a word of thanks
Thanks that I’d like to say
For the rage that I feel
For the rage that I [...]

So I got hauled in to Human Resources for another talking to about my attitude yesterday.
This incident occurred at the gate as we were leaving for the day. Some girl (I think I know who she is) went to the HR manager lady and complained that one day while trying to exit [...]

The other day I posted some of the views of the outside of my beloved little house back east. Now I’d like to share the few that I have of the inside. And although these were taken “AMI” (After Mom’s Invasion) they still remind me of a happier time when I had sanctuary [...]