Okay so as you can see I’ve made some major changes here. I can never seem to settle on one thing so…
I don’t really know exactly what I’m trying to accomplish and I’m sure that’s more than a little frustrating for people and I’m sorry. But until I can get things straight in my mind that’s the way it’s gonna be I’m afraid.
I have so much to say I think, but can never get it coherent enough to actually put down in writing. I would love to be able to get it all out but that’s just not happening yet. I just know that having had my life put on hold for the past 6 years has taken it’s toll. But the reality is that my life is gone now and it’s never coming back. Even when (if?) I once again regain control of me things will never be the same. And that kind of breaks my heart.
But at least my family has things the way they want them and are happy. And that’s all that matters, right?
