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Working for a "living"???

No One — Wed, 06 Aug 2008 23:57:57 +0000

So yeah, today was my annual review at work and I’m not sure it’s worth it. What they do is they take you into a room, give you your review paperwork and leave you alone for a few minutes to read it through. Now first off them taking me into a room, in light of recent past events, is a scary proposition for me. But anyway, I start reading the review and get to the part about…can’t remember the exact wording but something to the effect of considering other workers feelings and shit. Of course I got bad marks there and the thing that was supposed to be completely over & forgotten and never referred to again was mentioned in my review. Twice. So much for letting bygones be bygones and me having a clean slate.

Well that crap was bad enough but I also got dinged for my quality being slightly lower that it should but no mention of the fact that I talked to them about that exact issue a few times saying it was because of all the bullshit going on around me. The fact that since I’ve been moved to a different seat my quality is back up above where it should be apparently holds no weight. The final result is that my raise was a paltry sum although according to them it’s not bad considering their high end of raises (for the UNbeautiful people that is) is insulting in itself.

It just angers me that the only thing I ever had which was my work reputation, is gone. I have nothing anymore. Well maybe that’s good because if you have nothing then you lose nothing when the whole fucking show is over. Makes the end easier, no?

June 2008

No One — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 11:42:52 +0000

Nothing! Sister dear decided to go to bingo by herself while mom and I were back east so no time for me this month.

I'm going HOME!!!

No One — Wed, 21 May 2008 11:28:01 +0000

Just for a week but that’s better than nothing. It’ll be so good to get back east where I belong. Where there’s green grass and REAL trees. Honest to goodness mountains instead of hills with delusions of granduer. Properly prepared Chinese food and authenic New Yawk style pizza! And rude people that I understand…no fake nice politcally correct crap there.

I’ll go see the couple friends I haven’t completely alienated and drive around to soak in all the goodness that is life on the east coast. And take LOTS of pictures.

And hopefully I can convince Mom that that is where we need to be. Housing market be damned! We can sell this albatross of a house for whatever we can get and leave this dirt-strewn shithole once and for all.

So yeah, I’m excited. I think this feeling might even be approaching…HAPPY!

Paradise Found

No One — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 11:18:10 +0000

I found this picture on the internet and the beauty of the setting literally made me catch my breath. A scene like this is what I envision when I think about my escape from society. When I look at this picture I can see the small cabin behind me surrounded by nothing but trees and, most importantly, no other houses in sight. And nothing more on the lake than some ducks and geese. I picture a long tree-lined dirt driveway leading up to a 2 lane country road that takes me into town.

If I hold onto this vision maybe I can make it through.

October 2006

No One — Tue, 29 Jan 2008 11:45:35 +0000

NOTHING!!!!!!!!