My big mouth and my temper have gotten me in trouble again at work. Possibly fired this time. Hopefully I’ll find out my fate tomorrow. The deal is this…I am highly frustrated and when I get super stressed I tend to curse. Sometimes a little too loudly. Apparently I did it again the other day and some super sensitive and assinine little shit went and cried to daddy about it. Fucking little pussy. Grow the fuck up I say. But as the boss had previously spoken to me last September about this very issue, he has no choice this time but to take it to HR. I guess if I’m lucky I’ll just get written up. Of course if that happens I know I’ve screwed myself out of the work at home deal…IF they do actually implement it this year. I’ve been waiting 2 years now for it and that is part of my frustration at work. I can’t stand the goings on there. I’m there to work, not socialize and make buddies. They sure better let me know tomorrow and not fuck up my weekend (which is already fucked because they are making us work overtime).

I went through this getting-in-trouble-for-cursing thing back east too. That (and that pesky little knife incident) got me sent for evaluation and counseling. Thank God I quit before they had the satisfaction of firing me.

And yes I do realize the irony of all the cursing I’ve done in this post. Go tell it to the boss, cause I’m not interested.

More sad news from back home. Another aunt of mine is gone. Apparently she had a brain aneurysm that burst and she was in a coma for several hours before she died. She is the third one of my mother’s siblings to die within a year’s time. One aunt died a year ago this month and my uncle will be gone a year this coming April. Now this. And I can guarantee that this will be another of her sibling’s funerals that my mother won’t get to because I can’t take her and sister won’t. I don’t know what else to say at this point.

Finally feeling better, just exhausted still. But that’s just as much from emotional overload as it is from having been sick. Been busy trying to work up some Christmas spirit but it’s just not there. I didn’t really want anything for Christmas but there were a couple things I wouldn’t have minded getting. Of course they were knocked down by the powers that be. So instead I’m told that I’m getting “a controversial” gift this year. Apparently that means that I’ll like it but I won’t. Okaaaaaay, whateva! Should be interesting I guess. Have to go to my sister’s this year. Hooray. I get one lousy day off and can’t even spend it at home. Instead I have to go up there and be uncomfortable and play at being a family. So yeah…BAH HUMBUG I say.

But to all those who do enjoy the holiday season…Have a safe and happy holiday!

Love,
Mina Scrooge